Should've, Could've, Would've

We all find ourselves saying should've, would've, could've at some point in our lives or another. We all should have done something differently & could have done something differently & now after we have gone through a chapter in our lives we would have possibly done something different looking back. That's life though isn't it? We learn from these experiences  though falling sometimes harder than we'd like. You try to do what you think is right at that time based off what you have in front of you even though you have some doubt. That's where people say listen to your gut right? Looking back that "gut" feeling people are always talking about played out to be right even though I didn't always choose it, but instead choosing the more logical response. Sometimes the right thing doesn't make sense. It doesn't have to but it seems to have a way of working itself out. Follow what you feel on the inside & you will never make a wrong decision because your heart will have been in it. 

I myself look back on some decisions I have made for Ben in the past & again those three words whirl around in my head jabbing at me from time to time. I had a perfect place to turn Ben out on 24/7 turnout. It had large field with ample grass & beautiful large run in shed for him & beautiful facilities. I was 99% going to move him there but again logic kicked in & I last minute decided against it. He had never been out 24/7 year round, was older, & winter was approaching in a few months. There was also one issue I had with the place in question as well which mattered too much for me to let it go so to say. So instead of deciding what inside I knew was best for him I went with going with my own securities & keeping things the same. I don't regret going to the places we have been for we have met some amazing people I will never forget in the process, but I do often wonder had I just went ahead & done this years ago would any of this have happened? I will never know that answer but I now have him in that situation finally. It's what he has always wanted all along & deep inside I knew it. I was just too scared to actually take that leap until Ben had given me no choice in the matter. He teaches me a lot. He just wants to be a horse & for the first time I am following all of his wishes & allowing him to just be him.

These past 6 months have taught me a lot about myself, even more about Ben, & how you really need to let horses be horses. What's going through your head, your gut, your heart that might need a change? Don't cast it aside. Bring it forward & trust what you feel whole heartedly. You may be pleasantly surprised at what can come. I am glad for the lessons I have been taught & knowledge I have gained & the people I have come across through it all. If you could go back & possibly change a decision would you? I don't know the answer to that for me personally. I will still have those three little words that cast a shadow of doubt in the back of my mind. Should've, could've, would've.